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2011年4月22日

深いジオのフィードバック


韓国のジオがこの5週間の体験のフィードバックを書いてくれた。
彼女はもともと優れたライターなので、共振塾での体験をとても的確に書いてくれている。
踊る人はからだの動きのチャンネルだけが開いていて、口下手なのが常で、
ダンサーでかつライターというのはごくごくまれな存在だ。
誰もがこんな体験をしただろうが、ここまで書けた生徒ははじめてだ。
ジオは自立した女性の居場所のない韓国に居たたまれず、
自分のアイデンティティを探してアジアの長い旅を続けてきた。
そして、舞踏と宿命的な出会いを果たした。
子供のためのボランティアなどをしてきたからか、
驚くほど深い共振力を持った人だった。
おまけに風貌がこれまでに出会ったどんな日本人の舞踏家よりも舞踏顔をしていた。
おそらく彼女は生涯を舞踏に生きることになるだろう。
こういうよい出会いが生まれることほど生きていて嬉しいことはない。
ドゥルーズの忠実な弟子であるわたしは、彼が示した未来の倫理、
よい出会いを生みだすために生きているのだと言っていいほどだから。


Amazing Resonance for 5 weeks ---Gio

Actually,I can't tell you how I've been feeling.

Oneday (after starting this course) I dreamed. In the dream, i was changing my clothe in front of the mirror. The first clothe was nice, but some times later I changed again. I saw me through the mirror. I wore a beautiful clothe, the most beautiful...

It looked like an unique coat really nice. It's fitting for me, most fitting...

I said in the dream, "It's really fitting for me, most suitable!!"

Sometimes  I think of that dream. I feel like to take off, change clothe, wear new clothe, these days doing butoh.

Some one said to me about "[empty house] which the wind and air go and come easily". I imagine that my body become like empty house.

and I'm searching so many faces, so many bodies, so many sounds…

So many stories of body…from ancient times to now…

From other life to my life…

 

Amazing Resonance!

 

As I said when I went to Cambodia I had some strange feelings.

Why they live there (on the big river)? Why they stay on the street begging?

Why I'm walking passing them without doing together something?

Why I live in Korea at this time?

What relationship between them and me or you and me or me and even street dogs ,small trees, wild flowers…

 

Now I think, maybe it's resonance. I read some words like this.

"Sympathetic resonance"!! Anyway now I'm looking for various resonance through body.

Resonance will be one of the most important word in my life like a solidarity of various life in society.

You said " life resonance" Yes, life resonance.

Also the resonance with other students was amazing.

With deep emotion really I love their subbody.

 

And…Qualia!!

 

Too many Qualia! In our life… Can see can feel or can't see, can't feel…

In my case strong Qualia was in some memory.

One day you said "Close your eyes, and walk forward to your past life"

I was walking but suddenly I couldn7t walk.

I didn't want to see my past. I hesitated to go.

But, sometimes later, following your direction, I was walking in the unconscious condition. You said "Ask your life"

Yes, I did, and I waited for some answer.

And… you know what happened! My body answered for my asking.

My body remembered many things. Really amazing moments!!

The memory of the body!! I followed my body.

Sometimes I forget "I", erasing ego slowly.

When I gave up ego maximumly, there was a new world.

It's the greatest moment. I felt like "meditation of body"

I had an amazing experience in the vipassana.

But it's not enough to keep equanimity in my mind and to observe my body.

I want to express my pressure through body.]I want to comminicate our pressure in the social system… looking for the hidden "I" or nothingness.

 

Subbody methods

 

The methods were enough to help me to look for hidden "I".

It made me relax extremely and dissolved me.

Amazing methods to research skin,, bone,, joint,, all of inside.

Yes, I can be everything. It was enough to make me shiver.

Do you know? Why I started this traveling. I wanted to be born again.

You remember? One day I was baby in the new world…

I love some deep darkness beyond the line between darkness and light.. between happiness and sadness.

This body is wearing too many clothes. So heavy!!

I'm taking off one by one. Someday I'm wearing wind, darkness, some eyes and other creatures.

It's new road in my life. I've never thought about this, but I don't fear. I'm falling in love with subbody.

Coming back soon.

Just I'm thinking of the date.

Which is better? This September or next March for one year course.

Of course I want to come back as soon as possible.

Thanks a lot!!!

                                                                    Gio

 

 
路上の自伝−ジオ
2011年4月19日

路上の自伝・ジオ 

韓国のジオは、長く自国をでてアジアを旅していた。
何かを探して、どこか、誰か、出会うべきものに出会うために。
そして、昨年秋のヒマラヤ舞踏祭に参加して感銘を受け、今年の入学となった。
ビザの都合で一時帰国するが、またやってくるという。
舞踏のなかでからだを通じて生命に問い続け、生命からの答えを待った。
彼女の生命は彼女のからだを通じて答えを彼女に伝えた。
それが彼女の今年最後の踊りになった。
彼女は最後の日、次の詩をみんなに配った。
これを読んで、からだで味わってほしいと。
それから、私たちはこの路上を彼女と一緒に旅し始めた。
何度も何度も同じ穴に落ちながら・・・
それは誰にとっても忘れ難い旅になった。


I walk down the street
There is the deep hole in the side walk
I fall in.
I am lost..i m hopeless.
It isn’t my fault
It take forever to find a way.
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don’t see it.
I fall in again.
I can’t believe I m in the same place.
But it isn’t my fault.
It still take long time to get out.
I walk down the same street
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it is there.
I still fall in…it’s a habit.
My eyes are open.
I know where I am.
It is my fault.
I get out immediately.
I walk down the same street
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk
I walk around it.
I walk down another street..

"Autobiography in the five chapters"
(The Tibetan book of living & dying)


『チベットの死者の書』にでてくる有名な詩だ。
わたしもなんどもなんども同じ転び方をしてきたので、
この詩には深い感銘を受けた。
まさか、生徒のガイドでまたこの道をたどることになろうとは思っても見なかった。
この詩のあと、ジオは下記の彼女の舞踏譜を読みながら歩いた。
彼女は詩人でもあるのだ。



1.
Make a big standing circle.
Close your eyes and calm down with your breathe.
Calm down.. Calm down in the deep silence.
And slowly walk as you like, not so fast.

2.
I’m walking.. Walking for somewhere.
Walk and walk passing friends, strangers, buildings, trees..

Suddenly some strange feeling appears on my arms and between legs.
I feel like to pull from every direction, right side left side above head under the feet, even the front side.
Pulling me more and more..

Finally I can’t move.. anymore.


Open third eyes.
Look around!
Ah.. This world is so different from mine.
Where am I?
Beyond the time and the space..
What happened?

Oh! I’m dead. I’m on the end of life.
Look above!
My soul is looking at my dead body in the ceiling.
My body and Soul.. We’ll never come together again.
My dead body is looking at my soul on the border between former life and further life.. in a big chaos.


3.
I want to move.
But I still have attachment to former life
My mother, father.. family, friends and happy memory.
The memory of former life.. starts to appear under my feet like a motion picture.

4. POEM
[Autobiography in FIVE CHAPTERS] _ “THE TIBETAN BOOK OF LIVING & DYING”



5.
Now I’m out of all senses.. eyes ear nose tongue…
Sound smell taste.. every feeling and thinking..
My body is empty and slowly melting
Bones and muscles go back to the soil
Mucus goes back to the water..
And all of my body goes to the fire and somewhere.

Now
I take off old body
And wearing new air, wind or flower or animals or human or something else.

With new cloths I’m enjoying resonance with other body in the new world.