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２００８年６月７日
オーストリアから、８ヶ月生として入学したキキ（エリカ）今月のサブボディ・コーボディ舞踏「コクーン」と、２ヶ月を終えての文章。これから何が起こっていくのか。耳を澄ますのが私の仕事だ。あなたも一緒に耳を澄ましてみてください。自我や自己と生命の関係が、ここではとほうもなく変わっていく。すでにキキはそれを深く予感している。
After Two months /Kiki (Erika)
I FACE THE HIMALAYA MOUNTAIN, HEAR THE WATER DROPPING, THE BIRDS SINGING SONGS, THE WIND IS TOUCHING MY FACE, I FEEL MY HEART BEATING, MY STOMACH IS GOING UP & DOWN - YES I LIVE.
IT'S HARD FOR ME TO FIND WORDS OF THE LAST 2 MONTHS.
SO MANY SPECIAL MOMENTS. SO MANY DIFFERENT FEELINGS & STEP BY STEP I DISCOVER MYSELF. IN A VERY SPECIAL WAY. MY HATE & MY LOVE, MY MOVING & MY STILLNESS, MY LAUGHING & CRYING, MY TALKING & SILENCE, MY FEARS & MY STRONGNESS, MY GIVING & MY DEATH. EVERYTHING IT'S ME & I START TO SAY YES TO IT... TO LOVE IT AS A PART OF ME.
I'M HAPPY THAT I WILL STAY 8 MONTHS, BECAUSE IT TAKES SUCH A LOT TIME TO
CALM DOWN. AFTER 2 MONTHS I JUST FEEL THAT I STARTED TO START A LITTLE
BIT... TO BE ABLE TO GIVE TO THE BODY, TO THE SILENCE - THAT I STOP THINKING
& DAILY HABITS. IT TAKES SO MUCH TIME.... I THINK IT TAKES A LIFETIME.
SOMETIMES I HAVE THE FEELING THAT I BECOME A BABY & SOMETIMES I FEEL SO MUCH LOVE LIKE A MOTHER TO HEAR CHILD.
IT'S LIFE CHANGING MOMENTS. I'M OPENING UP & GET SO SENSITIVE. MANY TIMES I FIND MYSELF CRYING. BUT NOT BECAUSE I'M SAD... IT'S MORE LIKE THERE ARE SO MANY FEELINGS THAT HAVE TO COME OUT. BECAUSE I'M SO TOUCHED BY LIFE. I'M NOT THE SAME GIRL WHO CAME TO THIS SCHOOL 8 WEEKS AGO & I'M JUST GETTING READY TO REALLY START.
THANKS LEE FOR SHOWING ME SO MUCH ABOUT LIFE.
BUT NOW I NEED TO REST FOR A WEEK.
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