●After the expierience of one month course
When I met Lee at the first time, he said that listen to your body always,
"Are you doing what you want the most, at the place where you want
to be the most?"
I continued to ask this question to me for this month.
At the middle day of second week, Finally I could to cantact to the deepest
of the darkness of my body.
Before I could not touch to my traumas and dissociations at all because
of fear.
When I contact with them, strong emotion came up and I could not control it.
I asked to Lee what should I do when I confused by this.
He answered to me the following;
1 Notice that it is your subbody.
2 Recieve it as a part of your whole self, even if it is very ugly and
miserable one.
3 Become friend with the subbody for long time.
4 Dance the subbody with becoming it by your whole body and mind.
5 After dancing as the subbody, calm down yourself by using calming technique
which you learn at this school.
6 You know the nature and charactor of the subbody gradually.
7 When subbody can come out in the creative subbody butoh world, subbody
become calm and friendly with you. The dager of accidental discharge will
decrease.
8 When the accidental discharge occur unfortunately, we hug the subbody
by all. then it will calm down.
I tryed these advices and I could travel to the deeper world of the darkness
of my body, and connect with them.
Through these expieriences finally I found that I could unify my different
charactors which are separated for a long time.
Especially in my case, Sara as a physical performer and Aiko Kobayashi
as a dailly body was completely separated, but now they become oneness.
Off course, he does not remove our problems. he give us the chance and
way how to face our problems by his many methods. We have to continue to
face them and overcome.
Through this one month expieriences, sometime it was hard for me
But when I notice my whole self, I found that this is true myself which
are released from every bounds.
When I did not know about the enemies, I was afraid them. but after knowing
about them
I am not afraid.
The last day Lee said to me the same word as the first day.
Yes, I will continue to ask my self the question from now on.
I apriciate to the many friends who met at this school and Lee from my
heart.
07/04/06 Sara 沙羅
Sarah's subbody art
Crick for opening subbody art gallery
